stuck

when it happened this way, all you have to do is to be neutral.

but i'll never be completely neutral. it's not that i wanna side any of them, but please, gimme some time to settle down.

ok, i'm currently involved in a boys' fight, involved indirectly. i hate it when it comes to this way, when guys fight because of a girl, (not fighting OVER a girl) and the girl is me. *this ain't about edward-vs-jacab-love story.* i don't consider this prob as relationship prob 'cause it's more to a friendship prob. it's been three years being friend with you two and i didn't wish to end this friendship just because of some silly mistakes that one of us did.

ok, i admit it, somewhere, somehow, i'm wrong. but please, you two, perhaps one of you is reading this, stop your ego please? why didn't you both settle down and just solve it PEACEFULLY?

i know, guys ain't girls.

and i'm not one of you. i didn't know how it feels to be a guy, i didn't know how it feels to be a boyfriend to a girlfriend, i didn't know how it feels to be a male student but despite of those feelings, i know how it feels to be a girl who had stucked in the middle. after you both came to me separately, at the same day, told me everything that i should know, i felt very, very guilty. if only i could give up, leave you two behind and let everything goes with the flow.

but it wasn't that easy. it took me nights and days thinking of both of you. look, no matter how ego were both of you, i know, you two need each other soo sooo much. please don't fight over a little thing. you're big enough to choose the right.

to be honest, i'm truly disappointed of you, Mr S. i thought you're the best for him, but it seems a NO. Mr. S, he's trying to change himself, please except him for the way he is. he didn't mean those things to be happened. he really needs you right now. all you have to do is to be with him, guide him, accompany him against all odds.

my advice, don't be that sensitive. and to Mr A (who'd used to be a best friend of Mr S), please change your attitude. you're almost hated by everyone in your hostel. behave yourself please and don't fight over the littlest thing. it ain't worth it.


so, that's all for the time being. about the post going to Kuala Terengganu, i'm actually going to MRSM Kota Putra, Besut, at terengganu. not kuala terengganu :)

and can't wait to fly off, off we go! BATU PAHAT :DD


till then, miss you too fazrina. looking forward to meeting you next hols. miss you like HELL.

in class :p

am now having sains komputer class...not that boring..we're having photoshop tutorial right now...which are quite boring honestly..hehe..who cares..

ok, i've one question..it's so puzzling...
it's about these two friends of mine..and they're my boyfriend..
i mean, friends who are MALE in gender...
it's more to a friendship thing...

what will you do when one of them wants to be more than friend?

to be honest, i love everything to be in this way..everything's just flowing flowly..
everything's just fine, until the day he said that..
then, everything's changed..it's really awkward to be more than friend to your bestfriend..

gtg now..teacher's checking evrywhere.. see yaa..
and please reply me..give some opinion please..
desperately need it :(


btw sheena, i saw your hubby post, it's sooooo romantic.. :D

i'm still alive, people :)

it was awesome here..
guess what..internet is OFFICIALLY USABLE IN MRSM TAWAU people!!!!
yeah, you Know, for my entire life here, well not exactly, just for these few months, i've been living like a jakunist..specifically, a living without internet...so uncool.. -___-

well, not nymore.. smiley face again!!
smile with me people !! smile !! *wink wink* :D

ok, my school's normal. some students went gay, probably 'cause of pointer aka PNG. i got ranking number 3 for the whole form 4 and yes, thank God :D, my pointer is quite good too, haha, yeah right...3.88 =)

so, here's my result :)

BM 88%
BI 84%
Math Mod 80%
Add Math 87%
Bio 90%
Chem 88%
Phy 71%
Sej 93%
Ag Islam 88%
*not to forget, PJK is included in pointer too*
and fyi, my PJK sucks, 71%

actually my pointer is just 0.01 different from the ranking number 2..which i don't give any damn of anyway..ok, fine...quite good whatt..but still need some hard work..and fyi, ranking number one is soo sooo soo much GAY, 3.94..that was totally amazing..

move'on,
lastest about me, flying off to Batu Pahat, Johor early of July and at the end of july, going to Kuala Terengganu...the Johor one is for Math Carnival and the KT is for PANDU PUTERI..haha, a lil shocked when i wrote these two words heh?? who'd expect i'll join these girlie things??!! haha, sometimes, people change.. xD

well, that's all for now..struggling my head with some computer project for math carnival right now..hugs and kisses to all bloggersss..
especially to fazrina, izza, sheena, iman, fatney, eiya, kay, myaa, wawa etc..
miss you all so damn muchhhhhh ! :DD

p/s: thanks for reading my post nyway. i've nothing much to blog abt. just a lil update peeps :)


not to forget too,
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PEOPLE ! :D




and btw, if you've any comments or complain perhaps, please DON'T use my chatbox..use the comment tools instead. 'cause my school had banned cbox and i was unable to see ur comments...

COMMENTS ARE VERY WELCOME :D

stupid KLIA.

am now at KLIA.

spending my time here in some stupid cafe which charged me RM10 for 50 minutes of using internet. stupid cafe..gahh, i'm sooooooooooo regret for not bringing my super-duper heavy laptop here. but whatever it takes, i've wasted my precious 10 ringgit for something stupid here...yeah, blogging.

and yeah btw, i've snooped around sheena's blog and kay's private blog just now. i wish to convey my greatest congratulations for sheena's brand new hair, it was really really NICE :D

and kay, i love your private blog, 'cause i'm sooooo sooooo in love with lucas and that GAY boy, ADAM LAMBERT. WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !! so what if he's a gay?? xD

i love you, ADAM LAMBERT !

move on, my life in KL was really UNcool. getting bored her, i mean it was really boring here. going to the same places everyday..and obviously, there's no handsome boy..if do, they're mostly taken. BOOHOOOO..and their girlfriends are the BICTHEST girlfriend ever!! ok stop it..am flying off to kk today at 9.50pm. stupid MAS airline..we've to get another flight tomorrow to get back to tawau. stupid, stupid hols. and tonight, i'm gonna spend my night at KKIA, and it was a total SUCKSSSS...

and to my so-called devoted companions, who'd always snoop around my blog and look at my craps, thanks a lotttt. :DD
i'm totally busy for this two weeks.
no time for replying comments...soo sorry :)

and for sheena, i'm actually incharged for your tuition thing in my school. but i didn't see you at my school...tell me what class are you in.. curious to know here.. :)

and and, do you think there's handsome guy in my school nywy? ;p

short update here.

flying off to KL at 2.00pm. gonna get ready now.. but i'm have no mood for it. I DESPERATELY NEED SOME REST ! and yeah, just came back from LD last night, cousin's wedding and it was wonderful, upload the pics later. and, just wanna say goodbye here. it's gonna be a long vacation. THE WHOLE WEEK ! until this Sunday and i'll be back on Sunday too. gahh, enjoy heh? no, it's not. it's tiring. but anyway, i've booked 4 twilight series from a friend of mine in KL ! hahahaha ! yes, i'm a twilight freak ! and that's the main purpose of going to KL besides shopping. hihi.. gonna get ready now..i still haven't pack my things..haha, i'm LAZAYYYYY. xD

HAPPY HOLIDAY PEOPLE ! :D

p/s: so sorry for not rplying comments. it's tiring baby. :(

i was truly inspired.

Obama says the Muslim call to prayer is "one of the prettiest sounds on Earth."

i was kinda shocked to see this and today, to my surprise again, Obama said something that was truly, AMAZING. there were no fist bumps, but there were many interesting moments during Obama's speech in Cairo. the moment that got the most attention, in Search anyway, was Obama's use of "assalamualaikum."

said the President too: "I'm also proud to carry with me the goodwill of the American people, and a greeting of peace from Muslim communities in my country: Assalaamu alaykum."

after the speech, searches soared on the greeting, its meaning, and translation. according to the Islamic Dictionary, it literally means: "Peace be upon you." it is actually a shortened form of a phrase that translates to "Peace be unto you and so may the mercy of Allah and His blessings."

even in his other speeches, the president is using quotes from the Holy Quran several times, including this key quote that drew big applause: "The Holy Quran teaches that whoever kills an innocent, it is as if he has killed all mankind; and whoever saves a person, it is as if he has saved all mankind."

look, i love Barrack Obama. so what if he's black? damn, he inspired me so much. his presidency proved that he is truly an amazing president that will rule the people in peace and harmony. i believe in him, i believe that he'll bring peace to this entire world. he is the only one who would change America's future. and seriously, if someday, who knows, he'll convert to Islam, his conversion will definitely gives a HUGE change to this whole new world.

just as notable was the President's omission of a very controversial word: terrorism. Politico explains that this was likely a very conscious decision on Obama's part. instead of the "t-word" in his speech, Obama used the word "extremism" to get his point across. "Islam is not part of the problem in combating violent extremism," Obama said. "It is an important part of promoting peace."

see, he was again using Islam as an example to promote peace. indeed, Islam is not a cruel religion, but

ISLAM is the symbol of peace and tolerance.
i'll always pray to Allah that his heart will be wide-opened and convert to Islam with all his heart and soul. AMIN :]



p/s: this might be a sensitive issue, but since it's my blog and i didn't say anything that offend people, it's a legal post. thanks for reading. :)

welcome me back, dead blog -___-

yeah, it's midnight post. it's hols and everybody knew about that.
including me, YAY! i'm sooooo HAPPY. -____-

seriously, i'm not happy. nothing's interesting this hols.
except for the presence of my bro, KL vacation, cousins' visiting, cousin's weddings etc.

too many things to be done in a short time. i didn't expect my hols will be this packed. i mean, can't i have some relaxing holiday, sleep like until the breakfast time is over and enjoy my lunch directly after awaken, feeding cats all day long with some expired milk and cat food, drink some refreshing lemonade and eat some fattening snacks while watching some movies?

come'on, i miss those old times! i don't wanna spend my entire holidays with some shopping stuffs! seriously, i'm not in a shopping mood right now! i've turned myself into some jakunist girl who would only wear japanese flip flops instead of high heels and sneakers. i hate shopping. just hate shopping 'cause i hate seeing my money flowing out of nowhere. gosh, am i that terrible?

well, actually, i still love shopping. who would dare not to shop when sales are everywhere? plus if the whole budget was ur mom's? hell no, i love shopping man!! hihi. off record. :D

move'on, i am now proud to announce that my hell scary, freaky, tough, hard, difficult, damn killing examination is officially OVER. muahahahahahaha!! i'll have my very best holiday ever after this! i mean, i am! ahhahahah! overall, i'm quite satisfied with my result. well, not really good actually, it's just that i've done my best and my effort worth enough :)

that's all for today. a lil update people.
not in the mood of typing right now.
and before that, enjoy some awesome pics :)


welcome to my room, SK 12 :D



this is what we call, rules and schedules that will never be obeyed.


my dream bed. lol.



i love this shot.



memang kurang kasih sayang neyh xD



hihi. "mao jadi apa kamoo?"



home sweet home, i miss my dorm :(


and before continuing my sweetdreams,
thanks for the award miss eiya! :D
i am BEAUTIFUL. xD


am i?


p/s: leave your sincerest answer at the chatbox. i need it. xD


have a pleasant holiday people!
goodnight and sweet dreams :D