instead of preparation for IB, i'd rather talk about feelings :D

alhamdulillah, again and again i'm very grateful that He arranges this journey so perfectly. being offered in international baccalaureate for medicine was indeed my dream and now, it's a reality. insyaAllah.

so these days i've been reading on IB, yet i asked a lot even to the littlest things. *pardon my ignorance, seniors :)*

and through my observations, the most discussed topics were more or less on the level of difficulty itself and schedule conflicts. especially when it comes to assignments like EE, TOK and 150 hours of CAS to be completed over junior and senior years. and truth to be told, i am nervous as well.

1. therefore we tend to keep on feeling ANXIOUS :/
- in spite the nervousness that we already had. in fact, we're more curious to know more, what's this and that and all these are literally from internet specifically through the free web service that i'm using now, Blogger and the most reliable social web ever: Facebook. 3 years back when i'm so eager to enroll myself into boarding school (well put aside my brother's experiences in boarding sch and the rumours), i couldn't even imagine the entire life living with strangers, sharing a room of eight and imagining how my privacy and freedom had lessen. maybe because Friendster didn't do its job of providing informations like Facebook did. :p

the existence of Facebook helps in a way.


and again, why are we nervous?

2. because we're EXCITED :D



we asked this and that, like: are we allowed to do this and that? what are the dos and don'ts? how long is raya holiday and when is it? etc. i am not excluded, of course. but to think back the upcoming 2 years of experiencing it ourselves, why don't we sit back and relax, enjoying every single day left? no.

3. because we're DOOMED :|



lol, that sounds way too much, but frankly speaking, i am afraid. not sure if any of my colleagues experience the same thing.

well, i used to be a timid girl, very, very insecure. i thought too much on what others think of me despite the fact that they're not even noticing me, lol, that's paranoid. but having this 'fear feeling' actually taught me on how to be self-aware, to be careful on how you behave, how you talk to others, how to keep mouth shut whenever you have to. and what am i afraid of? obviously because of the whole new world i'll be facing in less than a month! i'm leaving my family, my friends, my neighbours with dogs and cats who often went berserk out of no where and most of all, my real life here, in tawau. seremban is way too far, mom :(

i'm sorry if i can't adapt to this new life as fast as others need me to. it takes time, but definitely i'll try my best :)

4. because the seniors had gone through it and they're all very POSITIVE :)



thanks seniors for the advices, for the details on IB and A-level, for the pictures of KMS (hehe) and even for the useful links related to IB, you guys helped us a lot! and i'm sorry if we had troubled you guys with our silly questions. *hehe*

thanks =')

so friends, let's make it! put aside the difficulties, the issue on newcastle university twinning program, the probability of flying overseas, the placement after IB etc, because the only thing we ought to think of for the time being is how to survive simultaneously enjoy the life of IB itself.


لاَ يُكَلِّفُ اللّهُ نَفْساً إِلاَّ وُسْعَهَا
Allah only assigns a soul something it can cope with. 2:286

insyaAllah, we're the chosen ones :)

just a few words to say =')

i had loved april, events that occurred last month had been favourable: especially on the royal wedding. hehe! =D



it would cost such a great loss if someone had missed the live broadcast of this magnificent wedding of the century. owh, it was the sweetest fairytale ever :)



yeah i know sitting in front of the television wouldn't be as pleasant as hours of standing in the midst of Westminster Abbey. but i must admit that everything was exquisitely beautiful! kate looked absolutely stunning in her wedding dress and william looked like he was the happiest man in the world =D

it was a real life fairytale. how i wish i could be like kate someday. prince harry, will you marry me? lol xD

owh, in case you're wondering where have i been missing for the last two months (bajet orang baca blog dia. lol xD) i went to MARA's scholarship interview last week in kk and it went quite well. alhamdulillah, praise to Allah, i was blessed with wonderful people around me, who had been helping me, even until the last minute, owh, i have no idea how to thank you guys! =')



special thanks to my parents, my big brother and my lil sister, my teachers, aunty natashah and teacher pauline, my friends (especially those who attended the interview), family friend from perak: uncle malik and muhaimin, family friend from kedah: uncle sobri and aunty, nazreen and baku --> owh, you helped a lotttt :)

THANKS A ZILLION =)

hope for good news. amin. by the way, alhamdulillah and congratulations to my bestiee: andy nurehan and a few friends of mine for getting places in Tanta University in Egypt, to kakak mumun and fera for the driving license and to nazreen sobri for the scholar! owh, you guys rock! godspeed guys! =)

to andy, kaka mumun, amirah, laima, safe'nana, fera, iswari, niza, kiki, inma, fatihah, zaimah, fadzillah, semualah! :)
ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan kami ya Allah, kekalkan lah persahabatan hamba-Mu bersama ukhti-ukhti ini ya Allah, mereka terlalu banyak membantu hamba-Mu ketika hamba-Mu sedang rapuh dan goyah. insyaAllah, Allah Al-alim, Allah akan tunjukkan apa yang terbaik. amin.

sahabat-sahabatku, saya cinta kamu sampai mati. ukhwah fillah =')

okay, till then. assalamualaikum! =D

money and me T.T

i checked my first salary in Public Bank today and yahoooo~ my current savings increased! teehee! =D

OKAY, it's not that much. but alhamdulillah i finally earn my own money!! so, i think firmly right after i saw the figures. RM***.**. it's not even 1k yet. YET. the thing is not get freaked out by how much i happened to spend for all this while. it's water under the bridge. the point is today is the beginning of my frugal life. i swear i'll cut my expenditure by half or maybe more or worse not even using any of it 'cause i reckon i can do much better than that. HEHE! :p





i've decided not to withdraw any single cent. let it grows and me: become richer =D

and as a result, i walked along the street with an empty purse. (right -.-) but i felt pure and refreshed. look at all those people on the street, scurrying around, thinking about nothing but money (especially this one fat guy i met in BSN, i think i saw some money scratch on his forehead -.-)



money, money, money, it's simply an obsession. but once you relinquish money altogether, it ceases to have any relevance. already, i feel i'm in completely different mindset, like seriously. less materialistic, more philosophical. more spiritual. like people always say: we all fail to appreciate each day just how much we already possess. light, air, freedom, love, the companionship of friends. i mean, these are things that matter, aren't they? not clothes, shoes, and fripperies. -.-

it's almost frightening, the transformation which already occured within me. for instance, i walked past the magazine kiosk and idly GLANCE OVER - but i don't feel the slightiest desire to buy any of the magazines in offer. they are so irrelevant in my new life.

so i kept on walking, feeling serene and impervious: like a buddhist monk -.- and to my own surprise, i walked straight past the discount shoe shop without even looking, and straight past Vinci's too. no more cendol today. no more nasi lalap. no spending at all, just straight to amanah saham to open my new account there. T.T
(and saving in amanah saham is indeed a good investment since they offer a higher percent of interest compared to the other banks. source: my dad)

so now, i'm planning on transferring a huge amount of money from my Alliance Bank's account into Amanah Saham. hehe! good plan =D

and i'm so sorry if i have to decline any of my friend's invitation to any money-requiring-events: because obviously I'M SAVING~ lalala :D


but of course, fatney, i'll keep my words on that nasi lalap's treat and to my smsp's friends: i am soooo looking forward for the steamboat thing! hehe! (once in a blue moon maa. never mind one =p)



anywho, i'll stick to these two new words: frugality and simplicity. well, probably my new watch-words :/


a new, uncluttered, Zen-like life, in which i spend nothing. seriously. -.-


till then everyone, sweet dreams! assalamualaikum =D

nasi lalap craving - satiated! :D

current mood: extremely happy like never before :DD

while considering what dish to make for lunch today, i've been fighting a serious cold since this morning. so as a result i've been craving for some comfort food; more likely to be spicy and hot (straight from the kitchen!) *woah!* :D

as usual, i asked my dad what to cook and blah blah blahhh -.-
and surprisingly - my dad offered me a treat!!! and it's nasi lalap at my favourite spot! huarghhhhhhhhhhhhh! :DDD


it's double treat babe!
dad drives + dad pays! :D


row of stores in taman semarak :)
(the biggest regency in tawau, huargh! :D)


anddd, here we are!
WARUNG JAWA :D



it's the best best best spot to experience the best quality of food yet paying the littlest to the owner! no government tax charged people! support Java's (Jawa) community since it's Javanese's cuisine! (i'm one of the community too fyi. hehe ;p)

besides char keow teow, my all time favourite food is NASI LALAP. huhh? lalap? or lalat? lalap rice? what theeeee??? chill yaw, for those who're not well awared of this marvelous food, kindly take a glimpse at the pictures below:



yes, that's fried chicken. well, unlike the kentucky fried chicken in kfc's restaurant, this is classic! after all fried food (especially fried chicken) is my ultimate comfort food; though i don't eat it as often for obvious reason, but i love the contrast of the exterior crunchiness and the interior tenderness. while chewing it, even to the tiniest bit, you'll crave for another crispy taste of the chicken. then you'll have no more mercy towards any chicken in this world. when you see them, you wish yourself is a vampire (one of the cullen's to be exact) - grab the chicken and eat it aliveeeeee!! muahahahahahahahaha *evil laugh*

........................


*wait, is it halal?*


-________________-

(the part where 'you grab alive chicken and eat' is of course not halal but nasi lalap is hundred percently HALAL. no worries :D)


the fried chicken and the soup (not in the picture) were as delicious as ever, but without the sauce (sambal) the meal just wasn’t complete. and the only way to know if the items work as a whole meal is to taste the sambal. trust me, if the sambal works; the whole meal will taste perfecto!

let's look back, if you've ever bumped into Java people, or Java's community, or just look at the people in Java, Indonesia itself; most of them have good bodies. i mean; THEY ARE MOSTLY SLIM :D

why? because they're being good to their body. see, even they're eating fried chicken, but simultaneously, they apply raw vegetables into their meal. they'll not only have a better digestion but also improve their skin appearance. and the most effective ways of getting a good skin is to eat RAW EGG. haha, this tastes soooo good :D



last but not least, the major supply of carbohydrates from a well steamed rice. malaysian people always think shedding extra weight is a difficult task. but the fact is that they are not aware of the true fact that one can easily shed their build up fat just by following proper diet, proper exercise as well as more important health supplement.

there's nothing wrong to eat rice, well some would say it provides 2 times of carbs but less energy than what bread offers; but still, we can't simply decline the fact that rice is our main dish. it's okay to eat rice but not too much.

my mom's advice: eat frequent but little. bear in mind to eat enough to feel satisfied, but not overly full.

imagine this perfect meal. savor its flavors. reflect on its health benefits, simply fills your table deliciously and nutritionally. instead of wasting money in high class restaurants, why not having this frugal lunch?

it only costs RM4.00 people (exclusive in Warung Jawa)!
bon apetit! :D



btw, my friends are having their worst boredom ever. they created a secret group. and to my-OH-MY; the name of the group is AYAT-AYAT CINTA. so-not-cool. and i'm accidentally added into that so-jiwang group -.-



salam! :D

goodbye in advance

muahahahaha *extremely evil laugh*

it may sound evil or maybe to those with the highest modesty and courtesy; it's more likely to be a rude manner as for a little girl treating her own brother who's going to spend his next 3 years in the land down under (to pursue his degree in electrical and electronic engineering in university of queensland, brisbane) a week more from now with an advance goodbye? nah, don't get me wrong, i'm still a good sister to a big brother. (well that 'good' doesn't really work on a big sister to a little sister though)

never mind. -.-


so, my mom and him is flying to KL tomorrow; not that he's going to stay there until 18th then he'll fly and leave me and my little sister! *become emo to all of a sudden* well just for a few days. for vacation or some issues on buying his thangs before he gets there i guess.

so; what's the bed time story for today, let's see.



the above picture was taken during last year's eid. i look like macik, no, MATURED (the one who's wearing blue gradient hijab -.-). what can i say; everyone's aging and unfortunately i AM one of the 'everyone'. okay, ignore.

once my brother is there: i'll be definitely doing these 6 compulsory things. seriously.

1. RINGING UP HIM FOR TIMES LIKE SERIOUSLY I'M WORRIED
of course, what else can i do to hear his macho voice? come'on, i love him mann.

2. ECSTATIC MUCH TO EXPERIENCE MY ONCE-IN-A-BLUE-MOON VIDEO CHAT
kesian, seriously i've done this once and it is soooooo COOL *jakun*


4. "QAYYUM, COME'ON, UPLOAD SOME PHOTOS THERE, HELLO??"
trust me, this very sentence will be ignored by my brother. he thinks i'm annoying. haha, I AM :D


5. "ABANG SAYA SUDA FLY PEGI AUSSIE"
wah! this is what i'll answer the-always-asked-questions after 18th feb. *bangga siot*

6. LAST BUT NOT LEAST "HOW'S YOUR UNIVERSITY? STILL IN BANJIR??"
of course i'm worried. brisbane is reeling from its worst flooding since 30 years ago. plus, he's my brother mannnnn. (hek eleh, konon prihatin xp)

people, it's not that i'm proud of him pursuing study to oversea. it's just that having an amusing brother like him, being a sister to an amazing brother like me (well though it sounds the same) makes you feel inspired. instead of reading The Malay Dilemma by Dr Mahathir, i could just be inspired by my own brother; and instead of watching the motivation shows 24/7, i could be just as passionate as he is since he taught me so much on life. he proves to everyone that anything is possible; if only we pray and put our hardest effort on it. he's an achiever, he's always been the one :D

i know my brother has inspired me to be my best now, reach out, be all of who i am and what i can be, share with others and learn from others by connecting with others, like i am here, through my blog and in person.

just for you to know big bro, i am proud of you and really looking forward for your new pics. haha, gotcha! (your profile pic bau hapak daaaa) here's praying everything goes fine, insyaAllah. godspeed big bro! :D


and guess it's not too late for sunday laughs, aite? watch this. this comedian, urm; no, this dude (rude pulak), this guy; nahh, this youtuber is going to aussie too and maybe my bro knew him 'cause they seemed to have the same pre-depart at selangor last last last week i suppose. he's going to sydney if i'm not mistaken; for his TESL degree. hee! he's cool and EXCEPTIONALLY HILARIOUS mannn! check this out:


this is one of my favourite.

he uploaded his latest vid on our natinal anthem: Negaraku. couldn't agree more with his views. just like what my bro said: "budak TESL memang hebat becakap". THEY ARE.

till then readers (bajet nyewwwwww adeww orang bacewwwwwwww blog diewwwww) haha!

oh yeah, cooked this with my mom for lunch today. bon apetit! :D


best eaten with chinese tea or pu er (herbal tea)
due to the current chinese new year celebration.
haha, one malaysia maaa! :D

my homemade seafood vs on-land-organisms (chic + vege) mee curry :D

salam! :D

almost heart attack -,-

as the sun stretches out its golden rays and begins to climb into the sky, its glorious morning light makes the clouds blush in a swirl of purple and orange. oh, unlike the days had passed, the cock next door declined to give its daily speech. no, it didn't exist today, left in sandakan apparently. thank God, but i was wide awake; even though last night i remembered i was insomnia. but, i wouldn't wake my mom from her slumber; thought it was too early to be awaken.

i grabbed my watch instead of alarm clock like i used to. looked into the figures on it but unfortunately there's no figure. after a few seconds of interpreting; oh my, oh myyy!!! i screeched. *worse than that i think*



10.47???? a.m or p.m??? @*(#^*&$%&^#!!!
"mumyyyy!! we're late!! wake up mom!!! we'll miss our flight, uncle useh is waiting downstairs, we need to check out...i haven't packed my things...blah blah...etc"

my mom was so cooooool -,-
(like seriously, she has never been cool that way -,-)
"it's still early la yin. look at the phone (my mom's mobile phone)" lending me that mobile with her full confidence. -,-
me: "no mom. it's 10.45am!!!!" O.O

..................



my mom's mobile number shows 0417. okay, stop. it has been a while since i attended add math class, really. worked on math problem? last year maybe. haha. no, it's not funny. i was confused, i was right. i've always been the right one. so i told my mom her phone rosak. then my mom switch on the entire lights in the room we rented; proving that she's right.

apparently she is. it's 4.17am. -________________-




HAHA -,-
my watch turned upside down. no, i turned my watch upside down. -____________-

so here i am now, calming myself down from an-almost-heart-attack; at KKIA - MAS Golden Launge, consuming my breakfast. the place is soo good, it's newly opened. much much better than the KLIA's one. *bersyukur* :D



they provide buffet, television, free-computer-usage, restrooms (of course) magnificient view (really) etc...and WiFi :DD


why they always have pin codes mann, hotel also the same -,-. give unsecured wiFi maa, baru generous. look at airaisia; always says everyone can fly; MAS can also improve; like, EVERYONE CAN ONLINE :D (nice kan? haha)


yummy breakFATS. -,-

flight to KL is at 10am something. cant wait to meet my big brother (si pencuri chocolate saya). hehe, miss him so much! till then, pray for my safe journey :)


captured this from today's Borneo Post

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE and happy advanced birthday to me. hehehe. >,<
salam :D

VACATION!! *woot woot* :D

finished my magazines, finished a few novels, read each and every lines on issues in newspaper, repeated a few movies, tutored my little sister academically and even on attitudes, tired of the dirts on dishes, been cooking all day long like seriously people are getting fat, also beating myself up to get real slim like anorexic etc; list of grievances goes on.

i'm bored, like seriously -.-




so, after months of turning my eyes from shopping, i let myself go back to pick up some essentials. i'll make sure to only stop in a few stores. i swear! well, bookstore is a must of course! *cant help it*:D


the above picture shows how desperate i am to get those thing

alhamdulillah, kk (kota kinabalu) waits no more. i am officially at KK, tadaaaa! my generous mom brought me along to her one week meeting which happens to be my so-called-one-week-vacay! (i'm like tumpang sekaki setangan etc kakitangan sort of thing laa ;D) thanks mommm!! yeah, and i'm glad to be here. arrived at 3pm, checked-in, settle down; then, SHOPPING :DD


camwhoring sekejap :D



the atmosphere everywhere was pretty the same, loads of red, very noisy and crowded too

chinese new year is getting near people. with Chinese New Year and my birthday falling on the same day, present present pleasee!! anyone??? *ada ONG!! kaching kaching*

no worries, ang pao can be sent in cash, pay cheque etc. for the dato'2; bank-in pun boleh. haji bakhil can give me makan treat, at Chili. HEHE :DDD


wawasan plaza left; warisan square right


Penang Char Kuey Teow.

this dish has always been one of my all time favorites. kuey teow is hor fun, the flat rice noodle is the delicious food that loved by Southeast Asian and ME!! it's equally good in soup base (kuey teow tang, chicken floss hor fun *this tastes sooo good* and etc) or in stir fry (char kuey teow, clam hor fun,etc). well, why is char kuey teow so popular? ASK ME, ASK ME!! :D

well, uh...it's pretty hard to explain in words, the only answer is to find the exact place and taste it by your own! it tastes sooo gooooood! caution to those have gouts, dont eat too much; usually they put tauge alot, so beware.




cool shots by not-so-cool cam. HEHE :)

after 5 hours of wandering around, browsing some essentials, well, my mission is partially accomplished. yay me!



it's been a while really since i last bought her books. it was 2 years ago, when my mom agreed to buy for me Hurting Distance and Little Face (well, of course after non-stop-begging-yet-doing-it-whole-heartedly just to get these two books)

it's no secret that i love Sophie Hannah's books, like soo soooo muchh! i think she's an amazing writer and i never ever know what is going to happen in her books, and usually, i know who has done what and why by about the third chapter of a thriller/mystery/horror. but reading Sophie Hannah - i won't lie to you; she doesn't shy away from going to some very, very dark places. it's a waste if you are looking for a cheerful read when this amusing writer exists in this real world, like seriously; you have to read her books. like my friend did to my Hurting Distance until she forgot to return it back, kan fera? hehe. no worries, i'm going to charge you for the overdue. hehe *kidding*



i picked up these two books (The Other Half Lives and A Room Swept White) based on critical reviews that had been posted online and in book publications. it was very good and if you enjoy British psychological thrillers a la Minette Walters, you won't be disappointed :)

well, of course nerds need to be vain too. i bought a handbag, well hope it won't look bulky in the others' eyes especially the pedestrians (just in case my handbag looks ugly so much then he couldn't stop staring until he missed the traffic...uh...what will happen next, kan?) but, who cares? hehe, so here we gooo; the vouge-est handbag i've ever had (for the time being laa), tadaaaa!



it's white actually. simple kan? look vain?? see, told you vainity won't kill. HAHA, no lah, cheap cheap one; in pasar gantung also got. haha. okay everyone, sleep tight! remember to forgive and forget before you sleep! forgive me too yaa!

salam :D