99.99% of songs these days, guess what they're all about?

老实说，现在的生活很好。有一堆好朋友、有一对很好笑的父母、家里还有小姐姐和表妹陪我乱哈拉。其实很满足了。有网友问我，为什么不找男朋友，因为我觉得不需要，不想坏了现在的心情。因为可能就因为男朋友，我会牺牲一些东西。

答案，重要吗？应该说，还重要吗？

或许我将来有一天会后悔，为什么当初不弄清楚一切。也或许有一天，我真的很想知道那一切。可是，对现在的我来说，我清楚我要什么，所以要知足。

the above chinese words are taken from a friend of mine. please, please and please visit her blog if you know mandarin; her blog shows maturity - 灯火阑珊处. she used to be my best friend and yeah, will forever be :D

joey, suk yee, ng san san, and her; tsen mung khie - we're besties since form 1 and that was when we were all respected (haha) by the juniors since we were the prefects as well as the captain juniors. haha, good times yet our zaman kezaliman. (we're so abusive, mind you ;p) but then, we had a huge fight, a really huge one, and soon we took our own path. everyone was happy to see us splitting up but we never felt right about it and eventually, we reverted to our own selves, the most '38' prefects gang ever and again becoming BFF like the so-called-war had never happened. haha.

well, i was interested in the above mandarin words that i've copied and pasted. it literally means this way;

to be frank, what i have now is more than enough. i've a bunch of friends, a pair of funny parents, cousins who've been accompanying me. i'm truly satisfied. but there're some online buddies, who asked me this question; why don't you have your own boyfriend? it's because, i think i don't have to, probably didn't wish to spoil my mood and hurt my feelings. because, only because of boyfriend, i would probably or perhaps lose some other things.

the question is; is it that important? no, it's supposed to be; is it still important right now?

or perhaps i'll regret someday; why didn't make things clear that very moment? or maybe someday, i would really want those lovey-dovey things. however, to who i am now, i am clear with what i want, what i need, therefore i should know how to be grateful.

sorry for the ulala english, direct translation kan, sounds funny. (hey, it took me a long time to find the similar words in english -.-) and yes, this post is about love. and i agreed with the fact that 99.9999% of the songs nowadays are about love, kan? :)

LOVE. what does Islam say about falling in love? is that allowed in Islam? if it is yes, how could we show that to the person we love without causing fitnah? i remember, my ustazah's precious words; love is neither halal nor haram (how i long usrah so much right now) because it is a feeling. maybe it is not under control. you can judge what is under control, but people who fall in love are in many episodes away from the cleansed and pure atmosphere.

"marriages that are usually good and lasting marriages are those that start at the least affection."

as for me, i agreed with tsen mung khie (the person who wrote the chinese words). to be honest i did explore these things, been doing research on it (since i have not much thing to do at home,hehehe). i couldn't say that 'i don't need these things', 'i'm not interested of these things la of course..' or 'these things had never ever come across my mind' and so forth that makes good impressions of yours towards me. i did mistakes and of course someday, somehow, i will make the other mistakes. please, correct me :)

i've had enough with these things, ever since i met some people, some views, just everything about Islam. they taught me how beautiful Islam is, trying to push me closer and closer to my only Creator with their full effort. alhamdulillah i met them (yes, i realise i'm missing them now). they embraced me with the values of Islam. (though it only took our very two years to be together) i just miss everything and i hope we'll soon meet again. ukhwah fillah kan! :D

and bear in mind that this is just my view; warn you! you come with your own accord, and i suppose you read this with your own accord too. seriously this is just my view, no offence. :)

for the time being, you guys can refer to any ustaz or ustazah or even friends as long as it's not opposing the aqidah. believe in yourself that you can always improve yourself, regardless the critics and views from others. you can do it. like NIKE always do, just do it!



my roomates, tapi nda lengkap laa.
from left; ziqa, fera, iswari and me :)


this shot was taken when our ayahanda was about to move back to kelantan. it's a great lost to mrsm tawau, really. i miss him a lot. he always share the beauty of Islam and science. i have to admit he is a really great math and physics tutor yet a really, really caring principal :D


ametis; my homeroom. miss them so much.
they called me 'kaka' but for the guys, they prefer to call me 'sis'
(since i'm the eldest in homeroom. duh! kantoi berumur! ;p)

put aside the ageing matters, we look cute together right? see, i told you we're the cutest homeroome of all. teehee *perasantan ;p
(well, if you do agree, don't hesitate to click on the 'LIKE' below *scroll down ;p)


hah! rindu nyaa makan pizza! by the way, i planned to work at pizza hut, but the manager fussed a lot so i'm planning to try nasib at kfc this monday. wish me luck! :)


we took this group photo right after we successfully finished our programme, Festival Budaya. i received positive feedbacks from teachers and all regarding to this programme. but yeah, without them, i'll never get such compliments. thanks, you guys;
Badan Wakil Pelajar, Lembaga Disiplin Pelajar and my exco kesenian and kebudayaan AJKs :)


drama crews. haha, we were crazy, no we are crazy and will forever be. afzal, alex, nazrin japiril, niza, fera, iswari, ella, intan, fatcat, ray, fikri, arinna, mat nor and aizat! not to forget kak jane, abg eriq, abg hafiz and sir ismail who helped us a LOT. we argued so many times but we eventually found ourselves and mistakes and we won the first runner up for east zone MRSM's dramafest! and surprisingly, (with no hujan and ribut) i was awarded as the best actress! jeng jeng jeng! it goes this way; jeng jeng jengggg, the best actress goes tooooooo; NABILA AZUREEN AZIS as Suri from the drama Immortality!!(heheeee, nda sangka, maybe my sobs went well that time or maybe the judges cried? lol)



and since then, i was called SURI. -.- thank God it didn't turn out to become my new nickname (like some people did,hehe ;p) last but not least, i would like to present you, the coolest class ever; with the title, 'kelas paling sunyi and seram; 5 SAINTIFIK!! (burung gagak lalu dengan suasana yang sepi and sunyi -.-)


cool right? haha *perasantan sekali lagi


inilah jejaka-jejaka yang x seberapa diidamkan honestly (joke ;p). they're pretty cool outside but once you've heard them burst into laughters, you probably would decide to stay away from them. seriously, they can laugh and CLAP HANDS (give applause laa) so LOUDLY for no occassions (didnt quite sure it was for fun or annoying people) and it may cause harm to your eardrum. thank God, none of us turn into deaf.

in my class, some said i'm reserved. well, not really, we get along by the end of the year since we just get together on April, you know like streaming class...'cause before this i was in 5 Kreatif and our teachers made some research and all and we were streamed according to our results.

yeah, back to the 'reserved' thingy, yeah, some of them did really think i am reserved. but nahhh, we're getting closer each month and yeah, i think they're the best classmates ever! i'll post another entry about my class next time, insyaALLAH.


so here we are, the girls (sumandak sumandak) with our beloved add math teacher, sir ridhuan.

hah! another long post i guess. i miss MRSM TAWAU so so much. here's a conclusion. if you think you have it all, be grateful and appreciate them all. put aside the unnecessary things. if they can give you the love that i think is more than enough, why need boyfriend? hehehe, kan? next time la maybe; when i get married ;p *duh! nakal suda. baru habis spm. kehkehkeh ;p



watch this before you leave. subhanallah :)




p/s; took this from my big bro's blog. haha, jangan marah bro! hehe, till then, salam :D