the real boredom

how's this pic?
boredom really can make one to become insane like THIS. no joke.


buhh. boring nyaa.
buhh, sukak hati laaa.
buhh, no credit buhh.
sorry dianne, sis dyan, faz, syamil, muzz, yvonne and a STRANGER.
haiyoo. ada spammer d phone sudaa.
btw, sorry laa people,
credit abeshh !
can't reply your msg people !

p/s : nda taw laa. sukak ckp 'buhh' sudaa ney. gilak sudaa :)



in a sudden, thought of twilight.
really wanna watch this.
and the book, i haven't get it.
goshh, i'm desperate with the book.

and'and, good night people ! :)

gonna miss my Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart :((

TWILIGHT DESPERATE ! ! ! !

in love?

soo in ♥












hello people !
i'm kinda LAZY updating my blog recently.
just wanna say a few words here.

goshh, just now i attended my realtive's wedding and it was TOTALLY awesome! it's not that i'm interested in these weddings thingy but haha, u ain't gonna believe what happen just now! goshh, i'm SOO in lovee ♥ ♥ ♥ . tadaaaa!

i met my first LOVE ! i mean my FIRST crush. no joke.

it's been 4 years we didn't meet each other and it was like POOF i saw HIM back!! he's taller and of course more handsome. haha. i was soo crushed on him since i was in primary 5. haha, kinda funny cuz i meet him again and YES this time is NO MORE CRUSH.

WE ATTACHED ! lolz, kidding. we just exchanged our phone number since he was studying in KK right now. and fyi, he's 17. same age with my bro. he's Uncle Sobrie's son and about his name, i'll tell y'all later after some 'improvement'. if you get what i mean. haha xD

goshh, and of course NOT i'm the one who flirted him. gentleman laa buhh, he did that. just act cool as my BROTHER WAS THERE. but he's nice. idk. whatever. i'm SINGLE and YES i can do whatever things i wanted right? and, same goes to him ! don't get JEALOUS people ! ! hihihi :)

breakaway :D

T H E O N L Y W A Y :)

finally, today i've made my OWN decision. i wanna stop everything. i don't care anymore bout relationship! bye LOSER! why should i be such a fool for being such a dumb to such a LOSER guy? such an IDIOT ! so now, i'm planning to be single. once again, YES i am ! single-mingle !! my plan is, i wanna DUMP him first before he dump me ! bye bye loser ! muahahha. *evill laugh* for guys out there, please don't flirt me. i don't have any mood to entertain y'all. omg, sounds like whores. no, i mean i've no time for these kinda ATTACHMENT THINGY. understand?

so, i've a great holiday this time. really great suckishh!!! went to sandakan and kk. tomorrow, my mom's going back to her second hometown. SANDAKAN. i'm not going back there ! never and ever. such a boring life living there without INTERNET ! plus, i'm having meet-up aka GURLS DAY-OUT with SHEENA !! can't wait. fyi, we're attacking GUARDIAN which we'll have our FREE make up lessons. hahahah xD *kan sheena. so sheena, be well prepared, cuz u'll meet the craziest ppl ever! and'and sheena, i'll bring my HUGE handbag too. just hoping tat i won't be some BULKY MACEK2 laa. hahaha xD

so, that's bout sheena. my new great friend. she's cool. wanna take a look at her?



cute right? i love her smile. gorgeous. jeleshh orhh. hihi. nywy, can't wait to meet u hunn ! i like her words --- GET A LIFE ! and'and, you know what, both of us got chemistry cuz both of us hate bitches. i guess everyone does. =.= but she's different, she told me abt one RETARDED, kesian friend, which is her hater now, acting like some WHORES, i mean sluts, saying bad things bout her. and surprisingly, sheena posted about the bitch into her blog! such a brave of her ! i like her style! that's our own right kan sheena? it was called MY BLOG for reasons ! buduh bha org tuwh sheena.

you see, we're soo famous. haha. fame comes just like that once bitches mention your name. they named it. all over the school and I , the one who had known as MEAN, *kununnya, had become famous and even well-known ! haiyaa, these whores are just wasting their time and SALIVA for doing such useless things. GET A LIFE laa anjing betina aka BITCHES !

i have my own life and my own rights.

this is MY blog. all rights reserved and you have no right AT ALL! you know what, idiots are always dumb and dumber will always be dumped ! don't you think so? so, to my one and only hater, change your attitude and come'on laa, you're NOT FAMOUS laa. stop dreaming BITCH!

p/s: sheena really makes me reminisce the past where i was retarded by some bitches and now my hater is the one who was retarded. kasiann. no friends sudah dya. even her own friends have no trust on her, pa lagi her enemies? begokkk laa kaw snaa . xp

will post something later. hope soo. :)

miserable :((

once you hear this song,

u'll know how UPSET am i this time.

i'm real JERK.

i'm USELESS.

am i just a NOTHING for ya?

i just don't know.

if i could just go back to the past

and start everything all over again.

i wish this relationship never exists.

YES i mean it.

i just don't know. :[[

still, i'm in confusion =/

i just don't know :[

WHERE I STOOD

by Missy Higgins

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
A little voice is whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found my self listening

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cause she will love you more then I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you aren't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cause she will love you more then I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me then any one I've ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so I say to you, this is what I have to do.

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cause she will love you more then I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
She who dares to stand where I stood.

confusion.

C O N F U S I O N

i just don't know :(

okei. it was damn boring now. sheena is not on the line anymore, leaving me alone with my pc and of course a few more craps out thre. well, i'm back tawau people ! but i feel NO EXCITEMENT at all except the fact that i can online again. no, it's a FINALLY. yea, i'm an internet addict and i can't survive without internet. i was barely alive at sandakan but when i'm back, i felt the same too. my life was loveless. and perhaps me too :(

ermm, i'm not in the mood now talking bout my trip to sandakan n kk. so, just let me tell y'all a lil story of mine during this hols.

so last week, i was attached to some guy but til now, i'm not sure with this attachment. yea, most of u must hve been saying: "don't take too serious to these kind of relationships. u're still young." yea2, i know that. i'm not taking serious hundred percently but i just don't understand this relationship. i mean everything. what's the point of attaching this time? i just don't know. i'm in confusion that i couldn't even explain how does my heart feels right now. i feel like i couldn't trust guy anymore and i couldn't even give other guy some chances. i was reall hurt last time and i don't want it to happen again. never.

yea, i can't blame him for being COLD to me cuz ME, did the same thing to him too. before we attached, everything was soo sweet but after having relationship, everything changed. i mean it had become worse. i just don't understand all of it :(

why can't i forget the past? only GOD knows what's the trauma i've been through before. i'm sick of everything. everything!! and i really wish this relationship never exists. i didn't mean to hurt him but i just don't want to be hurt again.

maybe i need some time. think about it all over again and hopefully will find a DEFINITE ANSWER. please show me the right path. :[

i'm so confused . . .

thanks a lot !!

♥ i still have one tag to go . but gtg now . going to shopping ! i'm trying my best peeps ! thanks a lot for d tag . i love y'all !

kiss goodbye

gonna miss my TAWAU !

♥ bubu :(

happy midnight peeps ! i'm soo soo not in the mood now. being forced by my mom to spend my two weeks time in sandakan really irritates me. yeaa, it is undeniable that sandakan is much2 better than tawau, but'but u can't expect me to SURVIVE there for 2 weeks ! plus, living without my friends ? yea2, i'm dying~ -.-

however, i've got to look at the positive sides too. at least, living there give me some peace. yeaa, once again, NO WAR KNOW PEACE *my new tm* . i loveee Obama!! okei dokei. another benefit, i'm going to live with my mom. yeaa, that means i'll have the best meal ever, if compared to the living with my dad. but of course, i'm gonna miss my dad. absolutely.. he's the only person who can stand with my keep-changing-mood. frankly, i'm a moody person who would slam anything if i'm JUST NOT IN THE MOOD. so, be prepared.. xD ermmm, haven't think about another benefit yet. yea2 ! i remembered ! i can meet my exBFs there ! my ORANG UTAN ! hahaha~ miss them soo soo much :)

bout my trip to sandakan. no no . i mean my SURVIVAL in sandakan, i'll be there tomorrow, i mean today, on the 10th. and it was a 5-hour-drive and i'll surely have my carsick. again ? goshh, i hate carsick. so, my plan in sandakan ---

1 . wanna me meet my exBFs xD
2 . wanna learn add math with my cuzies .
3 . wanna go to GIANT .
4 . wanna have some peace !
5 . finish my SHIT book .

yea2, wanna tell y'all something. i was really shocked when i found a book entitled 'SHIT' in my dad's drawer. that book was real awesome and it tells every single little thing bout RUDE WORDS. can u imagine that? plus, it tells you how to use it properly and it didn't mean rude at all. for further information, wait till i finished the book. and'and, last saturday, i watched a movie named MAYX PAYNE *i'm not sure with the spelling* , and it was the worst movie ever. it tells about angel thingy and suddenly tells about some drug which makes one to become stronger. so what's the purpose of the appearence of angel ? still, i don't understand the story. :(

lastly, wanna say, goodbye tawau and here i come SANDAKAN !!

freedom.

barrack obama d next president of US !
♥ happy holiday ..

ulaalaa ! hello peeps ! morningg ! really happy today to know Barrack Obama had bcome the next president for United State of America . hope the world will bcome PEACE again , after the ruling of BUSH is over . frankly, i don't like bush at all . how dare am i to talk such a thing in public like this . well, that's my right nywy . so , bout Obama , i support him 100% and really hope he'll change the world .yeaa , NO WAR KNOW PEACE !

so , today is the first day of holiday . yesterday was like OMG next year i'll be in sweet 16 and i'll be no longer 15 . i'm growing older and the time pasts soo fast . it seems like just yesterday i was in form 1 where everything starts from zero . but now, i'm a 15-year-old teenager who is waiting for PMR results . my current doom now .

so, this holiday will be fun . i guess . cuz i'm going to meet my new friend, eva ! hope soo. and'and, most of all, i'm gonna be in Sandakan which i'll have a meet up with my old'old friend, FATIN LYANA . i bet it'll be a blast !! bsides sandakan, i think i'm going to kay2 , looking forward to c myraa ! my coconut ! tee hee :) but i don't think i'm gonna meet my exBF there . he's sucks and i wish i'll never meet him again. never .

overall, i got so much plans for this holiday and i wish i'll use up all my free time wisely . tadaaa :) i'm done ! so, this is d latest pic which i just edited just now .i look soo idiot in this pic . and'and , gonna miss my sanggari cuz she's moving next year and yesterday was d last day we met ! imy , sanggari !!!



p/s : from left -- sanggari , valerie , and silly ME .