losing my mojo.

"Bella, i couldnt live myself if i ever hurt you.
you dont know how it's tortured me.
the thought of you still, white, cold..."

new moon's movie is okay but i'm really not okay. new moon's book is better but i'll never feel any much better. Jacob is great but drinking milo with Jacob's biscuit would be greater. Edward is hot but Jacob is way much hotter. no matter what team will i choose, it doesn't really matter.

'cause honestly, i dont even give a damn about it.

i'm mourning.

every single life will come to the end, it's just the matter of time

my grandma had just passed away. i'm recovering. too many things happened, and i know my friends are questioning. about my relationship status, i'm single and thats the end. i'm just not ready for any more commitment. please understand. and after this, i might not be the same anymore. life's been soo hard. i'm truly dissapointed of myself. and, if you're questioning why did i do 'this' to him, i have my own reason. i'm really down. please, i'm not ready and i really need some time.

i'm mourning and recovering.

moans and groans are thrown, mourn wont be forever. neither fame nor fortune, only prayers would be grown.
[al-fatihah]

Absurdities.

i am now figuring out what to do next. it seems soooo restless out here. just managed to unpack my things, sort out my thousand kinds of reference books until i realized that i've been living like hell for these two months without HANDPHONE.

yes, i'm still alive. but till then i realize,
my damn precious SIMCARD went missing!
and now, i think i'm no longer alive.

i have no idea what to do now. i thought he would call me as soon as he came home, but that damnn fool simcard...arghhhhh...

school went sooo wrong, i'm feeling down. fortunately my physics turned an A1, at least it relieves me. but all i can say, add math was challenging this time. oh please, JUST KILL ME.

unfortunately, exam was not the only absurdity. my bunch of holiday plans cracked my mind out of my head. too many plans at a time, definitely another absurdity. and, i have to master 9 murdering subjects from A-Z. drown me or soak me in some sophisticated washing machine. anyone? huh, now this one absurd.

btw, i'm looking for some functional simple phone, and it must be NOKIA. any suggestion? ohh, but this abundantly absurd. no budget. no worries, hoping list, or maybe i should say, ABSURD HOPING LIST? stupid.

btw, latest me. worse or worst?


istiq, me and amirah.

and, am i allowed to point out another absurdity?
MY FACEBOOK HAS BEEN DISABLED !
damn sh*t, absurdities abused me!