midnight review

It's nice to live without books for one week, been thinking to study, well at least, open up books this hols, but nope, mission failed :)

Had just finished reading my novel, THE HOST by Stephenie Meyer, been waiting some time to finish it up and finally, i did.


when I first picked up this novel, i have to admit to being a little confused – from the world of vampires in the Twilight Saga we now move to alien life forms invading earth...perhaps Stephenie had gone sci-fi, LOL.

whatever happened to her, she's an incredibly awesome author that i would definitely recommend any of her novels, and you will hundred percent SATISFIED :) she posses the ability to pull the reader into the story and allow them to feel like they are actually there with the characters, experiencing what they experience and feeling what they feel. she even paints a vivid picture of the characters and their lives in the mind of every reader who is fortunate enough to be touched by the worlds that she creates. it's like being in 3-d theater but better, its actually more like being in a 6-D theater, touching all of the human senses and emotion at once.

well yeah, this novel does stand up to the standards set by her preceding works. but despite of the creative story line and captivating emotions shown in The Host, i could not stop myself from finding many links between this novel and the Twilight series in regards to the characters, their emotions and their interconnected relationships, everything. Jared, from (The Host) could be very similar to Jacob (Twilight). both have a tendency to let their emotions get the best of them, both are somewhat selfish creatures in regards to the one that they love, and most of all they're extremely stubborn. Ian (The host) and Edward (Twilight) are the same way, comparatively, overly protective and somewhat irrational when it comes to the people that they love, both have the ability to love unconditionally despite the fact that both men love someone of a different species, and both men's brothers try to kill their partners and the greatest character similarity, however, exists between Wanderer/Melanie (The Host) and Bella (Twilight).

in both there are two different personalities existing in one body, each personality belonging to a different man that the characters love. like, there are two parts to Bella (Twilight) one in love Jacob (Twilight) and one in love with Edward (Twilight), but one love is stronger than the other. she describes the strain between the two as "tearing her apart." same thing goes to Wanderer/Melanie (The Host), but to a more extreme extent, which are described as two separate entities existing in one body "tearing them apart". Wanda(The Host), belonging to Ian (The Host); and (The Host), belonging to Jared (The Host).

in add math, its like,
BELLA = MELANIE + WANDA

Wanda (The Host) and Bella (Twilight) are both very self-sacrificing people who would go to the ends of the earth to prevent the ones that they love from hurting and would do anything in their power to make them happy. also, non-violent and even show compassion for enemies while Melanie (The Host) and Bella (Twilight) are both tough individuals possessing the ability to reason through stressful situations.

haha, and the funniest part is; there're aliens, love triangles, anger, envy, intrigue. what more could you want from a novel? she's a great author. i love you Stephenie :)

pacemaker didnt help me much though

have you ever thought about what protects our hearts? just a cage of rib bones and other various parts. so it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess, and to stop the muscle that makes us confess. but once the pacemaker stops and imagine how one could barely breathe despite of all the protections? i have no idea.

some people say, first things come from our hearts; words, actions, deja vu even the sense of death. *been watching final destination lately, lol* but did those people ever received the impulses that tells pacemaker doesnt give any info nor data? do they actually sit on a study carrel and feel how beautiful form 5 biology text book is? have they ever turn to first chapter of biology form five to see the actual functions of heart??!!

i am a curse invented by no witch who've never ever indulged into Hogwarts to learn those magic stuff. i dont play stupid games like Quiditch 'cause i know brooms wont fly. i'm just a girl who would turn things around when i feel it's upside down. i'm a typical homosapien who knows heart is a red-love shape 'cause i know i'm not yet a surgeon to cut one's heart out from his body and investigate the real shape of heart.

i'm deadly dead in this hollow death. my antibodies are detecting the presence of antigens 'laziness' despite of all the randomness pathogens that would grab it away. desperately needing natural active immunity to cure this pain. i'm horribly terribly lazier than i used to be. the only remedy is to excrete these from my kidneys, then i'll be hundred percent fine. my body is dehydrating.

diarrhoea...please get out of my way!

maybe not.

greetings charms, seems that i'm back on track to update this baby. i haven't put my butt off busy updating my blog yet, still searching for appropriate times since i'm so preoccupied with my schedules. i'm improving. well, at least.

miserable days i've went through put me in a deep down position, real deep. realizing the miles which are adding up and the days which are counting down didn't really work out if my decision is to remain this way. cut the jet black from my hair before we're bathed in the dawn. yeah, i'm fully grown. not really, 'cause i'm still figuring out to become a lil bit taller. please?

life taught us and thoughts twist words. infinity of life existed and exists since life is ever-changing. i've never put an end in my life, 'cause every end begins with a starting point. yes, i just received my result and it was...indescribable?

Bahasa Melayu - 90 [A]
Bahasa Inggeris - 84 [A]
Pendidikan Agama Islam - 87 [B+]
Sejarah - 85 [A]
Mathematics - 87 [A]
Additional Math - 83 [A]
Physics - 75 [A]
Chemistry - 74 [B+]
Biology - 74 [B+]
Pendidikan Jasmani dan kesihatan- 88 [A] :D
Pendidikan Sivik dan kewarganegaraan - 87 [A]

pointer ----> 3.86 -.-

PJK and PHYSICS relieve me but my pointer drops 0.01 and it's probably because of my laziness. well, IT IS. thank God i've noticed some dogs and cats went berserk over mates which have given me at least some wake up call while my neighbours are having their very World War which have at least inspired me to go to my room and not-to-busy-body but to study instead, my vacations are great enough but nothing would be greater if i spend my time sleeping at home and pay my abandoned sleeping debt instead. yes, i'm still down.

he's moving back to his home town next year. i have no right to stop him, yes but no, i dont. i've hurted him so much and the only thing i hope from him is his apology. maybe his friends or even my friends would say i'm cruel much but i'm really lucky to have such an understanding friend like him 'cause he's the only one who'd understand everything and i hope it is for real. i'll be definitely missing him, his memories, everything about him..

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sometimes, i would ask myself or maybe just a lil wish for myself to have the only thing i've been missing for all this while. i've been sooo demanding, asking for stupid things for my own good and finally i realized how selfish i was. but please, if this is the only demand or the last wish i would hope for, the only thing i would ask for is another chance.

if only i could ask for another chance and get things back to normal, everything will be fine, isn't it? if only i could ask for another chance to explain everything, everything will be better than this, isn't it? if only, i could ask for another chance to just see him a lil while, everything just won't vanish away just like this...

but no..the only thing to demand, or maybe just wish is a sincere apology. i'm sorry.