just a few words to say =')

i had loved april, events that occurred last month had been favourable: especially on the royal wedding. hehe! =D



it would cost such a great loss if someone had missed the live broadcast of this magnificent wedding of the century. owh, it was the sweetest fairytale ever :)



yeah i know sitting in front of the television wouldn't be as pleasant as hours of standing in the midst of Westminster Abbey. but i must admit that everything was exquisitely beautiful! kate looked absolutely stunning in her wedding dress and william looked like he was the happiest man in the world =D

it was a real life fairytale. how i wish i could be like kate someday. prince harry, will you marry me? lol xD

owh, in case you're wondering where have i been missing for the last two months (bajet orang baca blog dia. lol xD) i went to MARA's scholarship interview last week in kk and it went quite well. alhamdulillah, praise to Allah, i was blessed with wonderful people around me, who had been helping me, even until the last minute, owh, i have no idea how to thank you guys! =')



special thanks to my parents, my big brother and my lil sister, my teachers, aunty natashah and teacher pauline, my friends (especially those who attended the interview), family friend from perak: uncle malik and muhaimin, family friend from kedah: uncle sobri and aunty, nazreen and baku --> owh, you helped a lotttt :)

THANKS A ZILLION =)

hope for good news. amin. by the way, alhamdulillah and congratulations to my bestiee: andy nurehan and a few friends of mine for getting places in Tanta University in Egypt, to kakak mumun and fera for the driving license and to nazreen sobri for the scholar! owh, you guys rock! godspeed guys! =)

to andy, kaka mumun, amirah, laima, safe'nana, fera, iswari, niza, kiki, inma, fatihah, zaimah, fadzillah, semualah! :)
ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan kami ya Allah, kekalkan lah persahabatan hamba-Mu bersama ukhti-ukhti ini ya Allah, mereka terlalu banyak membantu hamba-Mu ketika hamba-Mu sedang rapuh dan goyah. insyaAllah, Allah Al-alim, Allah akan tunjukkan apa yang terbaik. amin.

sahabat-sahabatku, saya cinta kamu sampai mati. ukhwah fillah =')

okay, till then. assalamualaikum! =D

money and me T.T

i checked my first salary in Public Bank today and yahoooo~ my current savings increased! teehee! =D

OKAY, it's not that much. but alhamdulillah i finally earn my own money!! so, i think firmly right after i saw the figures. RM***.**. it's not even 1k yet. YET. the thing is not get freaked out by how much i happened to spend for all this while. it's water under the bridge. the point is today is the beginning of my frugal life. i swear i'll cut my expenditure by half or maybe more or worse not even using any of it 'cause i reckon i can do much better than that. HEHE! :p





i've decided not to withdraw any single cent. let it grows and me: become richer =D

and as a result, i walked along the street with an empty purse. (right -.-) but i felt pure and refreshed. look at all those people on the street, scurrying around, thinking about nothing but money (especially this one fat guy i met in BSN, i think i saw some money scratch on his forehead -.-)



money, money, money, it's simply an obsession. but once you relinquish money altogether, it ceases to have any relevance. already, i feel i'm in completely different mindset, like seriously. less materialistic, more philosophical. more spiritual. like people always say: we all fail to appreciate each day just how much we already possess. light, air, freedom, love, the companionship of friends. i mean, these are things that matter, aren't they? not clothes, shoes, and fripperies. -.-

it's almost frightening, the transformation which already occured within me. for instance, i walked past the magazine kiosk and idly GLANCE OVER - but i don't feel the slightiest desire to buy any of the magazines in offer. they are so irrelevant in my new life.

so i kept on walking, feeling serene and impervious: like a buddhist monk -.- and to my own surprise, i walked straight past the discount shoe shop without even looking, and straight past Vinci's too. no more cendol today. no more nasi lalap. no spending at all, just straight to amanah saham to open my new account there. T.T
(and saving in amanah saham is indeed a good investment since they offer a higher percent of interest compared to the other banks. source: my dad)

so now, i'm planning on transferring a huge amount of money from my Alliance Bank's account into Amanah Saham. hehe! good plan =D

and i'm so sorry if i have to decline any of my friend's invitation to any money-requiring-events: because obviously I'M SAVING~ lalala :D


but of course, fatney, i'll keep my words on that nasi lalap's treat and to my smsp's friends: i am soooo looking forward for the steamboat thing! hehe! (once in a blue moon maa. never mind one =p)



anywho, i'll stick to these two new words: frugality and simplicity. well, probably my new watch-words :/


a new, uncluttered, Zen-like life, in which i spend nothing. seriously. -.-


till then everyone, sweet dreams! assalamualaikum =D

nasi lalap craving - satiated! :D

current mood: extremely happy like never before :DD

while considering what dish to make for lunch today, i've been fighting a serious cold since this morning. so as a result i've been craving for some comfort food; more likely to be spicy and hot (straight from the kitchen!) *woah!* :D

as usual, i asked my dad what to cook and blah blah blahhh -.-
and surprisingly - my dad offered me a treat!!! and it's nasi lalap at my favourite spot! huarghhhhhhhhhhhhh! :DDD


it's double treat babe!
dad drives + dad pays! :D


row of stores in taman semarak :)
(the biggest regency in tawau, huargh! :D)


anddd, here we are!
WARUNG JAWA :D



it's the best best best spot to experience the best quality of food yet paying the littlest to the owner! no government tax charged people! support Java's (Jawa) community since it's Javanese's cuisine! (i'm one of the community too fyi. hehe ;p)

besides char keow teow, my all time favourite food is NASI LALAP. huhh? lalap? or lalat? lalap rice? what theeeee??? chill yaw, for those who're not well awared of this marvelous food, kindly take a glimpse at the pictures below:



yes, that's fried chicken. well, unlike the kentucky fried chicken in kfc's restaurant, this is classic! after all fried food (especially fried chicken) is my ultimate comfort food; though i don't eat it as often for obvious reason, but i love the contrast of the exterior crunchiness and the interior tenderness. while chewing it, even to the tiniest bit, you'll crave for another crispy taste of the chicken. then you'll have no more mercy towards any chicken in this world. when you see them, you wish yourself is a vampire (one of the cullen's to be exact) - grab the chicken and eat it aliveeeeee!! muahahahahahahahaha *evil laugh*

........................


*wait, is it halal?*


-________________-

(the part where 'you grab alive chicken and eat' is of course not halal but nasi lalap is hundred percently HALAL. no worries :D)


the fried chicken and the soup (not in the picture) were as delicious as ever, but without the sauce (sambal) the meal just wasn’t complete. and the only way to know if the items work as a whole meal is to taste the sambal. trust me, if the sambal works; the whole meal will taste perfecto!

let's look back, if you've ever bumped into Java people, or Java's community, or just look at the people in Java, Indonesia itself; most of them have good bodies. i mean; THEY ARE MOSTLY SLIM :D

why? because they're being good to their body. see, even they're eating fried chicken, but simultaneously, they apply raw vegetables into their meal. they'll not only have a better digestion but also improve their skin appearance. and the most effective ways of getting a good skin is to eat RAW EGG. haha, this tastes soooo good :D



last but not least, the major supply of carbohydrates from a well steamed rice. malaysian people always think shedding extra weight is a difficult task. but the fact is that they are not aware of the true fact that one can easily shed their build up fat just by following proper diet, proper exercise as well as more important health supplement.

there's nothing wrong to eat rice, well some would say it provides 2 times of carbs but less energy than what bread offers; but still, we can't simply decline the fact that rice is our main dish. it's okay to eat rice but not too much.

my mom's advice: eat frequent but little. bear in mind to eat enough to feel satisfied, but not overly full.

imagine this perfect meal. savor its flavors. reflect on its health benefits, simply fills your table deliciously and nutritionally. instead of wasting money in high class restaurants, why not having this frugal lunch?

it only costs RM4.00 people (exclusive in Warung Jawa)!
bon apetit! :D



btw, my friends are having their worst boredom ever. they created a secret group. and to my-OH-MY; the name of the group is AYAT-AYAT CINTA. so-not-cool. and i'm accidentally added into that so-jiwang group -.-



salam! :D

how to be as young as i am :D

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me. happy birthday to yiyin, happy birthday to meee. *takes a bow* :D

i’m halfway to 36 now. HEHE! *nods importantly*

not that i look like it, mind you. actually, i look more like halfway to 20, but that’s not the point. *wonders quietly to herself if she even had a point to begin with*

*decides to wing it and go with it anyways*

well, it’s 11:45am on my 18th birthday and i have now spoken with every member of my family. this is somewhat unusual for us since we hardly gather around especially when people in my house are aging. HAHA! mind you. so i’m feeling pretty shiny right now.

The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.
- Lucille Ball

stay YOUNG?? guess none of you would shake your head and say no this time. gotcha! TEEHEEEE :D

1. LIVE HONESTLY


to be honest means to speak the truth, even if it's difficult or gets you into trouble. honest people communicate in an open, upfront way; they do not lie, cheat, steal, or manipulate information to conceal it from others; they reveal the truth.

but, is there any exception for honesty? are we allowed to tell a "white lie" to protect someone's feelings? i did it too and sometimes i have to, so i do it again. so, as i turn 18, i want to be straight forward and frank but not the harmful way, but a nicer way instead. no more sarcastic me and no more beautiful lies. i'm me and looking forward for a better me! stay true and keep believing to our only creator, Allah swt. insyaAllah.

2. EAT SLOWLY

scratch that, i'll go for EAT LESS :D


as i'm turning 18, and the whole world's scientists had made a huge mistake to the entire subjects standing on our beloved Mother Earth by announcing; girls who once reach the age of 18 will have a constant growth until they reach 60 then they'll have osteoporosis then their height will eventually decrease. whether that theory works or not; i'm going to eat less. watched Dream High; episodes 8 and 9 today - how pilsuk can lose 30 kg for 200 days, it works on my self-esteem *yet i knew it isn't true that she's really fat* -,-

well, let's just say: i'll no longer grow vertically as what i had been doing for my last 18 years of my life but instead, i'll grow horizontally due to the undigested carbs turning into FAT -,-

and thank God i maintained my weight since the last day of spm. i don't really work out; just having some java-slimming-tips from my mom. hehe, and surprisingly, my mom has the same weight as me! imagine how slim she is! (if you know how slim i am, haha) hmmmm, so; guess i should post some of the slimming tips for you guys next entry. *high five* ;p

anyway, eating slowly is one of the ways to lose weight and have a better digestion besides enjoying the whole meal. trust me; slow eating will definitely turn you into a-slim-royal-yet-prissy-princess. it really works! especially when people ask to you to eat quickly, like; "hey you, eat quickly, we're getting late!" then your answer must be: "i'm sorry but i need to eat slowly, to be SLIMMMMMM" *well of course after chewing every bits in your mouth. i have no idea what does that mean. -,- *ignore that*

try work on this. this may help too ;)

"eat breakfast like a princess, lunch like a commoner, and dinner like a beggar"
- Dream High ep 8

3. LIE ABOUT YOUR AGE


recently (last week i guess) Malaysia Hari Ini in tv3 issued on a quite cliche question (well for those aging, of course, am i included?) - "Do You Lie About Your Age?" then, i asked myself: "age doesn't bother you, does it?" did I have to think about it? i'm just going to be 18, age is simply a state of mind, it won't appear on tv or your ID or even on your forehead just to tell the entire world that you're aging!

surely everyone has heard the cliche, "you're only as old as you feel", so i have the guts to ask you, whoever you are, whatever number your age will turn to : "How Do You Feel?" do you wake in the morning and lie there with problems weighing your mind, or do you get up and look out the window or sit on your porch and see the beauty surrounding that has been gifted you?

what we must understand is that, everyone has a past, even a teenager as young as me have my own. there has been losses, pain, misery and mistakes, but how can we move on into the glory of our elder years and enjoy what life still has to offer, if we dwell in the pity of our minds.

DEATH, yes; is inevitable. and we all must leave this wonderful world one day, and even though you may have lost a parent, a friend, a pet, you are still here and must live to the best of your ability. "we all have a purpose and if we don't let go, we will be eaten alive by the ugly old aging monster, bound by pain, wrinkles and a nasty, negative attitude. "be nice to people and be nice to yourself." that's what my dad told me, that's why he didn't look like a half-decade-man (even though that's his real age. hehe. oopps! ;p)

so i have to ask you, "How Do You Feel"? that will determine your age. lying about your age? nah, i'll stick for the first tip: 1. LIVE HONESTLY. besides, it's just a number, a state of mind ;)


so, how to be as young as an-18-years-old-but-look-more-like-10 like ME?? xD

try #1 and #2. ignore #3, it's harmful, to your soul especially. remember to cleanse our heart everyday, even by doing the littlest thing - whenever you bump into rubbish, pick it up, throw it into dustbin and say alhamdulillah! it could make your day a lot more meaningful. trust me, i've done that one! save our mother earth :D

almost forget; thanks for all the birthday wishes guys. and a BIG-BIG-MANSION thanks to my family for celebrating my birthday with homemade steamboat and special thanks to my big bro for buying the most expensive birthday cake i've ever had in my life! and not to forget my birthday celebration with my beloved teacher yesterday, we had a blast! :D

salam! :D

p/s: sorry for the grammatical and spelling errors. too lazy to check on that. zzz -,-

i was enchanted.

what can i say? Terengganu has the most beautiful beach that i’ve ever seen.

i had a visit to kuala terengganu last week, well, not for hey-babe-it's-holiday-let's-get-some-fun, it's more like; good-girl-accompanying-mom-to-a-meeting-why-not-having-some-fun. HAHA. -,-

these are my favourite shots. check them out :D






well, the difference between Mataking Island in Semporna Sabah and Terengganu is; the beaches. indeed, i adored the green and crystal clear ocean along my island hopping few years ago in Semporna, the variety of fish when i get to feed them at the jetty, the unique flora and fauna in the islands itself, the high tower which is possibly higher than the firehouse but unlike Terengganu, Terengganu treasures its own wonderful coastline and soft powdery sands. simply breathtaking.










whenever you're alone, book would be your best company :)




till then kuala terengganu, hope we'll meet again; so i can say subhanallah, once again :)


p/s: the other cool shots were uploaded to my fb.

pleasant viewing. salam! :D

treat girls RIGHT!

now it's girl-to-girl-talk; have you ever feel unsecured? invisible? or like a fat beast? an ugly skank? has anyone ever talk bad about you? and have you ever talk something bad behind them? abusing and being abused. regardless of what it looks like; essentially feeling abused might actually really human. almost everyone feels it, almost everyone goes through it, but not everyone talks about it. which really proves the point that 'abuse' is more about the person feeling it, than whom or what they're abused of.

1. YOU FAT BEAST!
oh, that's way too hush. scratch that; perhaps you've heard of 'you look chubbier now!', 'you're so cute!', 'you're pretty but you should gain a little weight than it'll be okay'. hold on; OKAY??? what does it mean by that OKAY?? i'm skinny? or i'm fat??

well, i can say that the most popular new year's resolution is to lose weight. everyone is beating up themselves just to be as hot as Kim Kardashian or maybe Yuri SNSD. i am definitely not excluded. but if you look back and think; no matter how fat one is, you can't convince them to go for The Biggest Loser just to lose weight! how about the shame? how are they going to face the whole society? how does the society will treat them next? no; the question is; has the society ever consider how they actually feel?

when you said to someone that may look like a joke, either you mean it or not, like; "every time she hits the ground, the earth shakes!" HAHA, that's so funny - not; that's humiliating. some would go for the invisible tease, like; "you look good in dress." but actually you're not. imagine if she takes the so called compliments seriously; she'll wear it on. then most of the people stared at you like you're an alien sent from Mars. would you mind? or you won't? it's so easy to say 'who cares?' yeah, who cares? i care.

remember it's a girl-to-girl talk. sometimes the magazines specifically the teens magazines would easily go for; 'be cool' or 'ignore them' even if you're not? of course, it works on increasing your self-esteem but does it work on healing your feelings? girls, it's MEAN to ask you to mind others' words. IT IS. but there're times you should listen and you shouldn't. simple. look at this sentence;

"you know what, you're fat. like seriously; you have to lose weight immediately or else you'll be the fattest teenager of the year! maybe it's a gene-thing of being fat because your dad looks chubby somehow."

now this is abusive. you can't just simply accept people insulting your family, especially your parents just because you're fat. let's see; what you should listen and what you should not;

"you know what, you're fat. like seriously; you have to lose weight immediately or else you'll be the fattest teenager of the year! maybe it's a gene-thing of being fat because your dad looks chubby somehow."

if this doesn't work on you; it destroys you! you'll burst into tears, deep in your heart; "no one would care if you jumped off a cliff, so why don't you?"

no, don't jump. you know what, they're destroying you with those 'fat beast' phrases just because they thought you're an easy target to make fun of. is it worth enough to just die because some kind of jerks make fun of you? let them be and all you have to do is find the right way of losing weight and prove to them that;



indeed they're ugly! they mind others' body but they dare not to look at their own faces because you know what; they're ugly! hahahahaha *evil laugh*

2. YOU UGLY SKANK WITH NO BOYFRIEND!
now what? abuse me with boyfriend again? told you i don't need boyfriend!



bravo and kudos to yourself who recognized that you do not need a boyfriend but a real man in your life :)

it takes courage, and self-confidence to not cave to pressures to go out there and find a boyfriend. look, we don't need to find our identity or be defined as to who we are by having to linked with a boyfriend. because; there's a great difference between needing a boyfriend and wanting a man in her life.

indeed every girl wants a man in her life. the long answer is she will want a man, when the time in her life makes her ready for a special man. toy boys need not apply.

yeah, that UGLY fact may apply for why i'm not having boyfriend. the other girls-with-no-boyfriend-yet-living-happily and i may look ugly now but someday; we believe there's always a true man sent by Allah who would realise how beautiful we are. well, of course they're not malaikat but they're our husbands :)

let's just say; it's a self-reliance and the will power to learn and see projects through on our own; taking care of our health and personal growth without needing the approval or permission of any male (except our father). doesn't this demonstrate young womens' strong spirit? what else makes a girl to be admired other than her independant spirit? :D *bangga bangga*

guess the boys reading this would get the message, that independant girl is not a trophy to be won, nor will she simply offer herself to a male. she's priceless and too expensive to get. she's totally unavailable. now every girls-with-no-boyfriends; no, scratch that, let's call ourselves - independant girls, give ourselves the biggest applause for being true to ourselves :D

bear this in mind; if you think a man respects you for who you are, he won't beg you to be his girlfriend, he won't pollute you with his sweet talk, he won't buy you with prosperity but he'll propose you to be his wife :D

insyaAllah; marriages that are usually good and lasting marriages are those that start at the least affection. be a true love believer 'cause true love waits :)

salam! :D

VACATION!! *woot woot* :D

finished my magazines, finished a few novels, read each and every lines on issues in newspaper, repeated a few movies, tutored my little sister academically and even on attitudes, tired of the dirts on dishes, been cooking all day long like seriously people are getting fat, also beating myself up to get real slim like anorexic etc; list of grievances goes on.

i'm bored, like seriously -.-




so, after months of turning my eyes from shopping, i let myself go back to pick up some essentials. i'll make sure to only stop in a few stores. i swear! well, bookstore is a must of course! *cant help it*:D


the above picture shows how desperate i am to get those thing

alhamdulillah, kk (kota kinabalu) waits no more. i am officially at KK, tadaaaa! my generous mom brought me along to her one week meeting which happens to be my so-called-one-week-vacay! (i'm like tumpang sekaki setangan etc kakitangan sort of thing laa ;D) thanks mommm!! yeah, and i'm glad to be here. arrived at 3pm, checked-in, settle down; then, SHOPPING :DD


camwhoring sekejap :D



the atmosphere everywhere was pretty the same, loads of red, very noisy and crowded too

chinese new year is getting near people. with Chinese New Year and my birthday falling on the same day, present present pleasee!! anyone??? *ada ONG!! kaching kaching*

no worries, ang pao can be sent in cash, pay cheque etc. for the dato'2; bank-in pun boleh. haji bakhil can give me makan treat, at Chili. HEHE :DDD


wawasan plaza left; warisan square right


Penang Char Kuey Teow.

this dish has always been one of my all time favorites. kuey teow is hor fun, the flat rice noodle is the delicious food that loved by Southeast Asian and ME!! it's equally good in soup base (kuey teow tang, chicken floss hor fun *this tastes sooo good* and etc) or in stir fry (char kuey teow, clam hor fun,etc). well, why is char kuey teow so popular? ASK ME, ASK ME!! :D

well, uh...it's pretty hard to explain in words, the only answer is to find the exact place and taste it by your own! it tastes sooo gooooood! caution to those have gouts, dont eat too much; usually they put tauge alot, so beware.




cool shots by not-so-cool cam. HEHE :)

after 5 hours of wandering around, browsing some essentials, well, my mission is partially accomplished. yay me!



it's been a while really since i last bought her books. it was 2 years ago, when my mom agreed to buy for me Hurting Distance and Little Face (well, of course after non-stop-begging-yet-doing-it-whole-heartedly just to get these two books)

it's no secret that i love Sophie Hannah's books, like soo soooo muchh! i think she's an amazing writer and i never ever know what is going to happen in her books, and usually, i know who has done what and why by about the third chapter of a thriller/mystery/horror. but reading Sophie Hannah - i won't lie to you; she doesn't shy away from going to some very, very dark places. it's a waste if you are looking for a cheerful read when this amusing writer exists in this real world, like seriously; you have to read her books. like my friend did to my Hurting Distance until she forgot to return it back, kan fera? hehe. no worries, i'm going to charge you for the overdue. hehe *kidding*



i picked up these two books (The Other Half Lives and A Room Swept White) based on critical reviews that had been posted online and in book publications. it was very good and if you enjoy British psychological thrillers a la Minette Walters, you won't be disappointed :)

well, of course nerds need to be vain too. i bought a handbag, well hope it won't look bulky in the others' eyes especially the pedestrians (just in case my handbag looks ugly so much then he couldn't stop staring until he missed the traffic...uh...what will happen next, kan?) but, who cares? hehe, so here we gooo; the vouge-est handbag i've ever had (for the time being laa), tadaaaa!



it's white actually. simple kan? look vain?? see, told you vainity won't kill. HAHA, no lah, cheap cheap one; in pasar gantung also got. haha. okay everyone, sleep tight! remember to forgive and forget before you sleep! forgive me too yaa!

salam :D