the film series: The Arrivals

to all of a sudden; i remembered how The Arrivals had become youtube hit and form 5 students' next top issue to talk to, last year. we tend to be so curious about the whole thing, especially this one classmate of mine, afiq; how he asked so many questions to ustazah, how he become so fanatic about it etc. he even worked as a part-time translater to the audience everytime they (the boys) get to watch it.

for the ignorant i am, i watched the film series anyway due to to the so-called-phenomenon in maktab. the 50 part film centers around the arrivals of the Dajjal (or AntiChrist as he is known in Christianity and Judaism) and Imam Mahdi. the arrivals of both dajjal and Imam Mahdi are major signs of the approach of Yawmal Qiyamah (day of Judgement).

unlike any other publication on dajjal, Imam Mahdi or the other major signs The Arrivals shows how dajjal has possibly already arrived and how he may have already lead you astray. the filmakers (production); Noreaga and Achenahr as they call themselves, have a well researched theory about freemasons preparing for the arrival of their god, satan and dajjal, by conditioning the world to indulge in consumerism and materialism.

let's face it; look at our modern day society and its consumer-mindedness is mostly unIslamic. tv shows, pop music, celebrity worship, the robot-like following of fashion, the unrealistic ideas of beauty all promote a society in which religion has no place. even homosexuality is commonplace. a woman's sensual beauty is a mere tool for advertising. religious figures are mocked, while Madonna's stage antics are a slap in the face for catholicism. it's everywhere. i could vividly recall ustazah's words; "religious morals are seen as outdated. it's hard to be avoided, because it's everywhere." even ustazah said so. hurm.

for the first time hearing about it, it sounds like yet another far-fetched conspiracy theory involving freemasonry. i am no conspirator, nor do i easily listen to anything that has the words UFOs and freemasons in it. (speaking of UFO; click this: "UFO hovers over Jerusalem")

okay, i was even sceptical about this film series. but as i watched the first few parts of it, there were facts it brought up that i couldn't argue against. it was disconcerting.



they present the theory to you as it's not the absolute truth, but something to make you think and consider conducting your own further investigation. whether you believe the film or not, is up to you.


but there's one thing i couldn't deny: the entire world is either steeped in one system, or they are racing to join it. and that system has ideals and morals that are wholly unIslamic.

when i realised that, i no longer wanted to be a part of it. as much as possible i wanted to stay out of it.

that's what put all my struggles with hijab, Islam in general, into perspective. i was stepping into that system and way of life during my 'rebellious years'. after The Arrivals i recognised the system for what it was: the path of those who are lead astray. and it's our own choice to simply become one of them or to deny it.


"I seek refuge in Allah from the outcast Satan
In the name of Allah, the most Beneficient, the most Merciful
Praise be to Allah, Lord of the worlds.
The Beneficient, the Merciful.
Master of the Day of Judgement.
Thee alone do we worship, Thee alone do we ask for help.
Show us the straight path,
The path of those whom Thou hast favoured,
Not the path of those who have earned Thine anger,
nor of those who have gone astray."

amin


insyaAllah, may all of us try to look at the signs, all around us; doesn't it prove enough? and bear in mind, don't think too much about something, especially how the nature works, the origins of nature etc, because; everything happens to us through the will of Allah.

like how i met to a sister; who's currently pursuing medic in University of Jordan. well, we haven't met yet, but through the conversations we had in skype and phone; she taught me a lot. especially on how Islam becomes not only our faith but our lifestyle as well. may Allah bless her and her entire family. hee :D

and let's pray for all Malaysians who are still in Egypt, and for Egypt as well as Muslims' right and justice. amin.

salam! :D

10 years later, wonder what will happen :|

miss A: "hey, it'll be great kan if we have our own alumni? like they did in sm st patrick..then we'll be the biggest organisers, making reunions and all. i bet it'll be fun! meeting our former teachers and all, visiting the students (our juniors) andddd, dewan seleraaa, and and hanging out again at cafe...blah blah and blahh.." *talking with the fullest ecstasy*

me: "yeah, why not." *with no interest, focusing on my drama in dewan selera yet trying to respect and look interested to that very conversation*

miss A: "yeah yeah yeah! i have this plan, we'll do exactly what sm st patrick did. remember?"

me: "like meet-up-friends-say-hello-and-talked-all-day-long that kind of stuff?" -.-

miss A: "well, not that boring la weyhhh..and and and, we must have that OCHESTRA!! yeah! like we had when we're in brass band, remember??" *talking and shouting simultaneously as if i'm not hearing*

me: "sooooo, when are you going to organise this and that? the alumni club? the reunion? and no, i'm definitely not going to be the assistant of yours. no"

miss A: "unfortunately, YES YOU ARE. the alumni club, i'll figure it out later, maybe right after we get our spm results and about the reunion, i've been thinking if it's okay if we held it 10 years later?? is it okay?? 17 to 27..hmmm"

me: "haaahhh?? heeee -.-"

miss A: "yeah, when some of our friends come with their children, with their husbands, then we'll check out for the 'singles' then we mix and match laa..hehehe"

me: "semangat nya kau, and penyibuk as well -.-"

the above conversation was held in dewan selera. when some of my friends and i were watching drama, at the same time consuming our supper; and there, she came; noisy yet cute girlfriend of mine.

yep, reunion. what will happen 10 years later, i wonder. HAHA :D

married? at what age do you think you'll get married? no figures but thousands of questions and stupid thoughts came out. yes, it's stupid; thinking of marriage on such a young age, how possible that could be? after all, i've just finished my spm, i still have my own infinity voyage to travel, i'm definitely not going to marry myself at such a young age, so what for thinking about it? i thought and ignored.

well, but i'm a girl with the same passion as many girls out there; ever thought of having my very own wonderful wedding someday - my very own garden wedding in botanical gardens or maybe in some historical setting. that was 10 years ago, when i was 7. years later i was showered with another question; how if the mother nature decides to go a little wild, then my garden wedding would turn into a garden nightmare? oh no. i should have my back-up plans. tents wouldn't help much but how about a bigger tent, like this? HEHE :D



and i've been thinking if i could 'borrow' some pigeons from Malaysian National Pigeons Association since i need white pigeons so much to make it look like a real garden wedding? hehe :p



totally forgot to mention chocolate fountains. well, i've decided to hire (as if i'm getting married, haha) an outside vendor for chocolate fountains instead of using the other dessert options. because, i thought the vendor will be cheaper plus the healthy dippings items like: strawberries, bananas, marshmallows, cookies and most of all, PRETZELS from europe (haha, mimpi -.-), who would complain kan?

one milk chocolate and one white chocolate. oh myy, i'm pretty psyched for that - i love white chocolate and i've never seen a white chocolate fountain at a wedding ever. (is there?) plus, there's the added bonus that i will be able to stuff my face and not get any brown chocolate on my gown. white chocolate can still spill - yes, but it won't do as much damage. yay me!



look at those berries, marshmallows, pretzels, cookies and and those cute cupcakes!! ohh, what a wonderful moment. MAMAMIAA! :D

not to forget, love songs is a must. bryan adams', air supply's, aerosmith's, abba's, josh groban's and most of all, ERIC CLAPTON'S - Tears In Heaven and Wonderful Night (the one that is first played when you refresh this page ;p)

Narrated Abu Huraira: "The Prophet, peace be upon him, said, `A woman is married for four things, i.e., her wealth, her family status, her beauty, and her religion. So you should marry the religious woman [otherwise] you will be a loser.'"
- taken from Jannah.org -

it seems ridiculous to discuss on such things, right? especially girls on my age, 17?? (well, going to be 18 but not yet ;p) but think again, people always say that they are too young to think about marriage. i think it’s just because younger people usually don’t know who they are. they are constantly changing and finding out new things about themselves.

and maybe i seemed to be sooo positive on marriages; chocolate fountains, white doves, garden setting and so forth. but, marriage is a hard work, and sometimes no matter how hard you work it doesn’t work out. even the outside influences can poison a marriage, how about the uncertain relationship before marriage?

i'm not convincing any of my readers to not get married just to avoid themselves from getting hurt. no, never. marriage is one of the most wonderful things to be experienced and remember; marriages that are usually good and lasting marriages are those that start at the least affection :)

The prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said "There is no celibacy in Islam." The prophet has also said, "Marriage is my tradition whosoever keeps away from it is not from amongst us".

see? Islam taught us so many things about life. Islam shows to us that nothing could be taken so easily. but everything's possible with Allah's will and effort.

insyaAllah, we'll try to be the best muslim and muslimah and may Allah bless all of us, including our love ones :)

salam! :D

women and men = maids and aliens?

everyone has their own rights to write in blog, that is why we consider it as a B + L + O + G = BOAST LIFE ON GADGET -.-

i thought it's no one's fault if one get offended or being offensive enough on one's entry, views, picture and so forth. that's what a blog does, right? it appears as what the owners want to; to upload pictures as big as a mansion, to put as many gadget as it is usable in real life, and even some would rather be sarcastic in their words; well, either purposely to voice out their views on something or just to gain others' attention. (so to increase traffic and to increase money from click rate and ads. *btw, i joined nuffnang, just, just now. HEHE*)

as the saying goes, words are way sharper than the sharpest sword. in real life, every single life gets hurt. but in this matter, i try to be neutral because both parties have their own rights.


click to enlarge. crop from a homosapien's blog.

hijab and women. muslim women wear hijab because it is in keeping with the commandments of Allah. through Muhammad, Allah’s words are that women should be modest, and cover their beauties like their hair and their chest. at home among family and in front of their husband, muslim women are allowed not to wear it.

i come in peace, not offending anyone but to remind myself as well.

it’s been a journey yet it continues; this is not the end. let me reiterate that, this is not my final view on hijab. nothing in life is final. we are dynamic beings living in a dynamic world. things are always changing, slowly morphing from one form to another.

the only constant is Allah. i just might act differently to those beliefs at different points in time. probably because of thinking about too many things; life, death, afterlife, how the things work, bad vs good etc.

perfection is not something i strive for. it's a misguided goal (these are someone's words and i'm holding tight with them). so instead of trying to be the perfect muslim, i try to be the best i can be. it may sound like the same thing, but it’s not. perfection is a standard, unrelated to me but being the best of me is the goal that i can completely understand with every fibre of my being. because i know myself well.

i was created as i am with all my bad personality traits as well as my good ones. am i wrong?

"we just have to; open our eyes, our hearts, and minds. if we just look bright to see the signs. we can’t keep hiding from the truth. let it take us by surprise. take us in the best way, guide us every single day. keep us close to you, until the end of time."
- open your eyes by maher zain -

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well, he owns the points, the exact points. YES, this is from a 'HE'. now i'm start wondering what my male friends (nanti cakap boyfriends perasan pulak -.-) had on their minds, about hijab itself and of course those various kinds of hijab and shawls that hit the market these days which happened to become girls' favourite? well, i'm definitely not excluded.

they are undeniably addictive and something to be shown-off.


grabbed this from google

well, at least, i've read the post. sarcastic to be honest but we can change. we can still turn things around; well of course to the right path, to His only path.

"you say we're on the brink of destruction and you're right. but it's only on the brink that people find the will to change. only at the precipice do we evolve. this is our moment. don't take it from us, we are close to an answer."
- taken from 'The Day The Earth Stood Still' movie

just don't grab the moment and be so negative about some mistakes. mistakes? i supposed to. this 'HE' assumed all of the hijab-wearing-girls knew the exact definition of aurat and expecting every single stylo-hijab-wearing-girls-who-upload-500kb-into-their-blog to be offended and listen to his teachings, no, they're more likely to be 'advices'. i'm not mad, neither angry nor offended. i'm just shocked, to see the comments. now, let's just agree with john gray...


btw, i've read this. literally explains both genders' emotional needs anddd, COMMUNICATION STYLE.

see? women like to demonstrate their feelings by being allowed to relate problems without interference. but when men communicate, they like to get to the point, and generally only want to listen if they feel the conversation has a point; women enjoy talking for its own sake, and are happy to listen unconditionally. but how can Adam and Hawa get along? by love and respect. it's good to have our own opinions as long as we respect each other. let's just start with respect, then we'll bring the love.

now, maybe the point is; some women are not happy to hear those sarcastic words from this 'HE'. are you happy making people upset? no. and are you upset when people happy? no. so, let's call it a day. i'm really tired when it comes to adam and hawa. i just ask for your tolerance and compassion. i know this is hard to read especially when you're that hijab-wearing-girl kan? no worries, whether it's destructive or constructive, it's our choice to mind it or not.

but frankly, this 'HE' woke me up. thanks for reminding and it's fine with me. recall recall my tenth new year's resolution; keep on motivating myself. i can always improve, kan? ;)



insyaAllah, i'll continue to study Islam, hijab and life’s workings. i am a naturally dynamic being. we are dynamic beings. so, there's no one to blame, really. Allah's always watching me, and the rest of us :)

salam :D

99.99% of songs these days, guess what they're all about?

老实说，现在的生活很好。有一堆好朋友、有一对很好笑的父母、家里还有小姐姐和表妹陪我乱哈拉。其实很满足了。有网友问我，为什么不找男朋友，因为我觉得不需要，不想坏了现在的心情。因为可能就因为男朋友，我会牺牲一些东西。

答案，重要吗？应该说，还重要吗？

或许我将来有一天会后悔，为什么当初不弄清楚一切。也或许有一天，我真的很想知道那一切。可是，对现在的我来说，我清楚我要什么，所以要知足。

the above chinese words are taken from a friend of mine. please, please and please visit her blog if you know mandarin; her blog shows maturity - 灯火阑珊处. she used to be my best friend and yeah, will forever be :D

joey, suk yee, ng san san, and her; tsen mung khie - we're besties since form 1 and that was when we were all respected (haha) by the juniors since we were the prefects as well as the captain juniors. haha, good times yet our zaman kezaliman. (we're so abusive, mind you ;p) but then, we had a huge fight, a really huge one, and soon we took our own path. everyone was happy to see us splitting up but we never felt right about it and eventually, we reverted to our own selves, the most '38' prefects gang ever and again becoming BFF like the so-called-war had never happened. haha.

well, i was interested in the above mandarin words that i've copied and pasted. it literally means this way;

to be frank, what i have now is more than enough. i've a bunch of friends, a pair of funny parents, cousins who've been accompanying me. i'm truly satisfied. but there're some online buddies, who asked me this question; why don't you have your own boyfriend? it's because, i think i don't have to, probably didn't wish to spoil my mood and hurt my feelings. because, only because of boyfriend, i would probably or perhaps lose some other things.

the question is; is it that important? no, it's supposed to be; is it still important right now?

or perhaps i'll regret someday; why didn't make things clear that very moment? or maybe someday, i would really want those lovey-dovey things. however, to who i am now, i am clear with what i want, what i need, therefore i should know how to be grateful.

sorry for the ulala english, direct translation kan, sounds funny. (hey, it took me a long time to find the similar words in english -.-) and yes, this post is about love. and i agreed with the fact that 99.9999% of the songs nowadays are about love, kan? :)

LOVE. what does Islam say about falling in love? is that allowed in Islam? if it is yes, how could we show that to the person we love without causing fitnah? i remember, my ustazah's precious words; love is neither halal nor haram (how i long usrah so much right now) because it is a feeling. maybe it is not under control. you can judge what is under control, but people who fall in love are in many episodes away from the cleansed and pure atmosphere.

"marriages that are usually good and lasting marriages are those that start at the least affection."

as for me, i agreed with tsen mung khie (the person who wrote the chinese words). to be honest i did explore these things, been doing research on it (since i have not much thing to do at home,hehehe). i couldn't say that 'i don't need these things', 'i'm not interested of these things la of course..' or 'these things had never ever come across my mind' and so forth that makes good impressions of yours towards me. i did mistakes and of course someday, somehow, i will make the other mistakes. please, correct me :)

i've had enough with these things, ever since i met some people, some views, just everything about Islam. they taught me how beautiful Islam is, trying to push me closer and closer to my only Creator with their full effort. alhamdulillah i met them (yes, i realise i'm missing them now). they embraced me with the values of Islam. (though it only took our very two years to be together) i just miss everything and i hope we'll soon meet again. ukhwah fillah kan! :D

and bear in mind that this is just my view; warn you! you come with your own accord, and i suppose you read this with your own accord too. seriously this is just my view, no offence. :)

for the time being, you guys can refer to any ustaz or ustazah or even friends as long as it's not opposing the aqidah. believe in yourself that you can always improve yourself, regardless the critics and views from others. you can do it. like NIKE always do, just do it!



my roomates, tapi nda lengkap laa.
from left; ziqa, fera, iswari and me :)


this shot was taken when our ayahanda was about to move back to kelantan. it's a great lost to mrsm tawau, really. i miss him a lot. he always share the beauty of Islam and science. i have to admit he is a really great math and physics tutor yet a really, really caring principal :D


ametis; my homeroom. miss them so much.
they called me 'kaka' but for the guys, they prefer to call me 'sis'
(since i'm the eldest in homeroom. duh! kantoi berumur! ;p)

put aside the ageing matters, we look cute together right? see, i told you we're the cutest homeroome of all. teehee *perasantan ;p
(well, if you do agree, don't hesitate to click on the 'LIKE' below *scroll down ;p)


hah! rindu nyaa makan pizza! by the way, i planned to work at pizza hut, but the manager fussed a lot so i'm planning to try nasib at kfc this monday. wish me luck! :)


we took this group photo right after we successfully finished our programme, Festival Budaya. i received positive feedbacks from teachers and all regarding to this programme. but yeah, without them, i'll never get such compliments. thanks, you guys;
Badan Wakil Pelajar, Lembaga Disiplin Pelajar and my exco kesenian and kebudayaan AJKs :)


drama crews. haha, we were crazy, no we are crazy and will forever be. afzal, alex, nazrin japiril, niza, fera, iswari, ella, intan, fatcat, ray, fikri, arinna, mat nor and aizat! not to forget kak jane, abg eriq, abg hafiz and sir ismail who helped us a LOT. we argued so many times but we eventually found ourselves and mistakes and we won the first runner up for east zone MRSM's dramafest! and surprisingly, (with no hujan and ribut) i was awarded as the best actress! jeng jeng jeng! it goes this way; jeng jeng jengggg, the best actress goes tooooooo; NABILA AZUREEN AZIS as Suri from the drama Immortality!!(heheeee, nda sangka, maybe my sobs went well that time or maybe the judges cried? lol)



and since then, i was called SURI. -.- thank God it didn't turn out to become my new nickname (like some people did,hehe ;p) last but not least, i would like to present you, the coolest class ever; with the title, 'kelas paling sunyi and seram; 5 SAINTIFIK!! (burung gagak lalu dengan suasana yang sepi and sunyi -.-)


cool right? haha *perasantan sekali lagi


inilah jejaka-jejaka yang x seberapa diidamkan honestly (joke ;p). they're pretty cool outside but once you've heard them burst into laughters, you probably would decide to stay away from them. seriously, they can laugh and CLAP HANDS (give applause laa) so LOUDLY for no occassions (didnt quite sure it was for fun or annoying people) and it may cause harm to your eardrum. thank God, none of us turn into deaf.

in my class, some said i'm reserved. well, not really, we get along by the end of the year since we just get together on April, you know like streaming class...'cause before this i was in 5 Kreatif and our teachers made some research and all and we were streamed according to our results.

yeah, back to the 'reserved' thingy, yeah, some of them did really think i am reserved. but nahhh, we're getting closer each month and yeah, i think they're the best classmates ever! i'll post another entry about my class next time, insyaALLAH.


so here we are, the girls (sumandak sumandak) with our beloved add math teacher, sir ridhuan.

hah! another long post i guess. i miss MRSM TAWAU so so much. here's a conclusion. if you think you have it all, be grateful and appreciate them all. put aside the unnecessary things. if they can give you the love that i think is more than enough, why need boyfriend? hehehe, kan? next time la maybe; when i get married ;p *duh! nakal suda. baru habis spm. kehkehkeh ;p



watch this before you leave. subhanallah :)




p/s; took this from my big bro's blog. haha, jangan marah bro! hehe, till then, salam :D